the rabbit's hole

ok, first, let me inform you right up front that the word rabbit in the title in no way indicates that the contents of this blog will be any less dreadful thatn any of the others. There will be no adorable childhood memories of bunnies frolicking in a sunny meadow, or good natured quips about edible pets... actually, i need to mention that one day i saw a sign that said "rabbits for pets or meat." It was written on a wooden cutout of Bugs Bunny. It seemed in such poor taste [no punn intended]. Then a little father down the road there was a sign , which from a distance said " Granny's Crotch" the visions it conjured up were considerably more hideous than I had previously thought possible. As it turned out, the name of the eatery was Granny's crock, still unapealing to be sure, but not full on nauseating. As you have probably noticed, I have once again, digressed. When i was about 4, i got the movie of Alice's tea party, as a Christmas gift. And yes, i realize that Alice in Wonderland was a drug induced story,never intended for children' eyes, and that the tea party is perhaps the best scene in the entire movie; at any rate, I watched it dozens of times over the years. I know it by heart, and still smile when I think of the witty repartae, between the hatter and the hare. This rabbit was very different from the fat and flusterd bunny we met earlier in the story. This one has a darkness to him, that I find irrisistable. Of all the characters in the story, he would be the coolest to hang out with. Sure, it may raise some eyebrows, but people would eventually adjust. People seem to be able to adjust to nearly anything. Rabbits from a netherworld are particularly adept at helping us to adjust, when we find that up is down and day is night. Recently, most of the things i took for granted, have vanished into the puff of smoke, that they always were. So much of life is just smoke and mirrors, an illusion, that we all believe.Mass hypnosis. "You are not enough."" Nobody will love the real you."" You have no right to have needs. ""You are not worthy." Wait slow down! Listen to the Hare, he is saying something different, aside from his pointless banter about tea, he is saying that the only you worth having tea with, is the real you. Fat or thin, guy or girl, straight or not; the real you is the is the one who is loved, and the one who will make it out of the hole. We can serve him tea in our best china, but if we do it just to try to look like a good hostess, he will see through it. The tea will have a bitter taste to him and we will not feel the magic of serving refreshment to a dear friend. So even if he drinks the tea, his thirst will not be quenched, he may even consume cup after cup, trying to taste the sweetness. If this happens,Iwould advise you to back away, because he will drink till he vomitts, and he will be unlikely to turn his head. And as you stand there, silver tea service in hand, recycled tea dripping from your freshly pressed apron: you may be inclined to wonder what you did to deserve this. And that is kind of like life, we give when we actually resent it and then we get vomit in our hare.[ Sorry. That pun is dedicated to Dads everywhere]